Kate Ellison Quotes

#1. I expect to find Stern, secreted away in every molecule of air, and at every turn.

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#2. Maybe there is something when it all ends. Maybe there is memory, memory of the person you loved, when you lived. Maybe this is the white-light-tunnel deal, and I'm pressing toward it, and it's pressing back, until we become the same thing.

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#3. They all want to leave the Gray Space, Liv, she'd tell me. They don't realise they're dead until they remember what it sounds like to be alive.

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#4. After two weeks of feeling dead numb, I decided the sewage system needed the pills more than I did, so I flushed them all down the toilet.

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#5. For a second
a second that lasts infinite seconds
he turns his face away from the wind to meet my eye. He smiles, he smiles without worrying about the gap in his teeth, he smiles in a way that I know: he is free.

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#6. Think about a moment, a little centimeter of time you'd happily exist in forever, if time could be laid out along the spine of a ruler. Maybe it haunts you in that blue inch of half consciousness just before you're fully awake.

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#7. Believe you me, Lope-hey, has anyone ever called you 'Lope' before?

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#8. Six seconds in, six seconds out- no choice anymore. Don't mess this up. If I mess up, even by a second, I have to start the breath cycle all over again. That's the rule. The unbreakable rule.

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#9. I should have added,' he continues, clearing his throat, 'that nothing the Prophet says makes any sense.

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#10. And then- moving his long, clean fingers around my waist and pulling me closer to his pine, his clove, his grass, his snow, his light- he kisses me.

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#11. You're sleeping next to me right now. You're all wrapped up in blankets, and you look like a delicious lady-sandwich. I might eat you before you wake up. Just wanted to let you know.

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#12. Maybe the things we think we have to believe are the things that end up killing us in the end, when we figure out we were wrong, about everything.

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#13. It's not a real place, not a real thing. Mom made up the Gray Space, the place of anti-art, antifeeling, the cold dark place that felt like death. It was just her zany way of describing the place she went when she felt most depressed, when making music at all became impossible.
It isn't real.

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#14. Pyscho,' Flynt says, pounding a fist hard into his chair. 'Ouch

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#15. Pam, my new therapist, who's like some blissed-out, grown-up, yoga-hippie version of Rain, says that the physical body, the idea of the self, is kind of a scar: a brief puckering of time, a fleeting sewing together of energy and heart, which go beyond the physical form, on and on and on, forever.

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#16. I used to think this heroic: my sturdy, stable dad, capable of anything. But now I realize that he's just drawn to dying, helpless things. The unsaveables.
Like Mom.
Maybe, like me.

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#17. Saturday is Flea Market Day, holiest of days.

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#18. So, if you were to divide your school in to subsections of the animal kingdom, or, let's just say into primates ...

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#19. ( ... ) maybe the heart is an organ on constant ready, always waiting to try again, always open to the next best thing.

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#20. From the corner of my eye, the Ghost of Mother Past sits in her queenly bedroom chair in front of the mirror, glittering there in the evening light.

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#21. I banana the softest banana in the world; it's a new game, seeing just how soft I can banana while still banana-ing.

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#22. Then again," he continues, turning to me as we approach the busted old birdbath- the point where Neverland ends and the rest of the world begins- "never say never.

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