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#1. We were both damaged goods that had a hand in damaging each other further.

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#2. My wife had only been dead for a few months, and already random ass women were trying to fill her shoes.

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#3. The women that I played with since meeting James were for his fulfillment. Sure, I enjoyed it, but it wasn't a necessity of mine. This

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#4. For the first time in a long time, I was nervous around a man. Vince and I have been rather close for the past year, but it's been an emotional connection. This

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#5. The more Vince and I got back to how we used to be, the more I got high. I

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#6. Despite my funny feeling about her, I regretfully obliged to his interest in pursuing a sexual relationship with her. I knew James only wanted the pussy, but I could see in Raven's eyes that she wanted more.

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#7. And what I also couldn't take anymore was this look of disgust on Lyric's face as she stared at me like this was all my fault. She seemed repulsed at the possibility of Tim being my father.

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#8. I didn't care who she killed or what other crimes she committed- I couldn't let my sister sit in that jail and rot. I'm

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#9. Physically a lot hadn't changed, but emotionally, I was getting better. Rather than letting the usual insecurities and stresses get to me, I had been staying prayed up.

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#10. I was the one that almost got shot in the head by my boyfriend. What the hell was she crying about? It

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#11. Amiel was always sure to spend the holidays with me. I assume it's to prevent me from feeling like the typical chick on the side that never gets the holidays.

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#12. Taij and I talked often, which is why, if there was a woman close enough to him that DeSire assumed was his wife, it was news to me because he hadn't told me.

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#13. Before the dick, I had my shit together. I had goals, dreams, and aspirations. But after the dick, I was lost, turned out all over again, and needed Iyanla to fix my life.

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#14. So I had to further lower his self esteem by ignoring him. I needed the distance to fill his mind with further insecurities that he would be insistent on making go away by showing me otherwise. Feeling

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#15. I wouldn't exactly call what I was doing prostitution. As a matter of fact, I didn't put any labels on how I made money. It was simply called doin' what I had to do. My

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#16. She was addicted to the pain. Addicted to the drama. Addicted to the cat and mouse game.

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#17. Though I no longer lived with Jessie, this city itself was a constant reminder of my mother, the beatings, the molestation, and the attempted suicide.

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#18. Jelani hasn't stopped calling and text messaging me since Thursday. Every day there has been more than twenty calls, a dozen voicemails, damn near hundreds of text messages, and only God knows how many times he IM'd me because I haven't logged in out of fear. He's

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#19. When they let me out of disciplinary segregation this morning, I knew they were probably letting Gigi out too, which meant that my level of safety and comfort had shrunk to nothing.

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#20. Atlanta. I was forgetting more and more about my life in Chicago, and I prayed that it was forgetting about me. As

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#21. I was feeding my need to be submissive to a great man since it has been so long since I had the privilege. That's what I missed most about Bradley; the joy I felt catering to someone who took good care of me emotionally, physically, and sexually. He deserved for me to cook, clean, and serve him. I

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#22. We want to remember the lessons of our past because they have a lot to teach us. That way, we can avoid the mistakes and fools of our past. Forgiving is not the same as condoning or approving.

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#23. Our relationship was different, therefore successful, because James and I understood each other's sexuality. He loves women; loves them. He was very honest with me about his insatiable appetite for the opposite sex.

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#24. I think that's why I was so adamant to get Simone Campbell. I hated every willing side bitch that walked this earth.

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#25. It was heartbreaking to know that Lucky was so loyal that he had willingly entered that lion's den to spare Blood. I saw in Blood's eyes day after day that he was a changed man after that. Yet,

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#26. Knowing Jasmine's relationship to Simone, Capone didn't want me to have no parts of her.

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#27. Don't diss the caterpillar and then sweat it when it starts to turn into a beautiful butterfly.

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#28. Twanya, Faye's daughter that went to Kenwood, had been on my ass for two days, taunting and fighting me. It got so bad that I had to stay home from school for the last two days.

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#29. Though she promised that she would take care of things, she was ghost, just like I thought. She wasn't answering my text messages, and she was straight sending me to voicemail when I called. I

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#30. Frustration. I was actually upset that I didn't love this man as much as he loved me.

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#31. Despite the fact that my household had been turned upside down by my stupidity, this fool was holding my daughter hostage.

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#32. Despite my loyalty, I still ended up on the streets penniless and homeless. Something

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#33. Behind his eyes was emotional pain because I had hurt him. I was in pain because he had crossed me. "Boss,

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#34. Though my initial intent was to cater to him, he took over our sexual experiences by catering to and spoiling me.

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#35. Shon has been his right hand for the last five years. Shon was his best friend and like a brother to him- not just someone who worked for him.

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#36. I know it's not an excuse, but that was my only reason for fucking Omari in the first place. It was nothing personal against Aeysha.

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#37. Though I was more than willing to share my man sexually, I couldn't imagine him dating, holding hands, and courting another woman.

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#38. I feared Fyte's obsession with Blood and his insanity more than death. As

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#39. She was a single mother of four kids, with little help from Twon, who turned into a complete psychopath once they divorced.

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#40. Clinginess seriously clashes with my current desire to be unattached.

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#41. But somewhere in my circle of supposed loyal "fam" was a dirty motherfucker. The accusations were pointing at everybody.

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#42. To see the man that I love pursue another woman was heartbreaking. Usually men do this shit behind your back. However, since we were in the lifestyle, I guess he thought it was okay to do it in my face. "I told you that there were

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#43. You could have told me, but you were loyal to them. But being in that room knowing that they were coming and arguing with Roxy showed me that you were loyal to me too.

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#44. While Taij and I were together, I made sure to keep up my appearance since his lack of an erection always made me feel like something was wrong with me.

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#45. I had taken a bitch's man for way less meaningful purposes, so to take one to spare my life was a no brainer. Leave

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#46. Because Lynn and I worked so close together, our friendship grew into a support system for one another. At the time, I was seeing a psychologist.

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#47. It was only two months after Tunde, her ex-love interest, suddenly moved to North Carolina, against her wishes, when she met Amiel at a gas station in Lansing.

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#48. Monday night, I miscarried. Just as the doctor explained, I took the pill that afternoon and by sometime in the wee hours of the morning, I miscarried. Vic was there with me for support.

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#49. They say that everything happens for a reason. Maybe one day, I will know what that reason is. Until then, I would live everyday correcting my wrongs.

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#50. From time to time, Ebony and I also ran credit card scams.

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#51. It was crazy how prior to leaving Chicago, I thought that I would die without Omari. I thought that my life would be meaningless if I wasn't waking up to him every day. But now that I had no choice but to move on, there was no pain in losing him.

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#52. Living a hard life with niggas whose loyalty was only for the streets, and never for a woman, was embedded in me.

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#53. I knew that this was her last run when I was on my way over here, so her threats were meaningless.

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#54. Chance's public defender hadn't been any help whatsoever. He rarely answered my calls. When we finally talked, he wasn't any help.

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#55. Four days ago, I realized that being alone was better than having his sorry ass company making me miserable every fucking day. Four days ago, I realized that being alone was better than living every day lonely with him.

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#56. Trust is like a mirror; once its broken, you can glue it back together, but you can still see the cracks in that motherfucker's reflection.

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#57. Tricey eventually forgave me for falling in love with Taij, but Lyric never did. Besides,

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#58. It is painfully obvious that I have fallen out of love with my husband. It is also painfully obvious that Travis is too egotistical to help me fall back in love with him.

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#59. Sometimes we wonder how a particular person can hurt us over and over again, causing us so much pain. We have to realize that when God closes a door, he doesn't intend for us to go around back or try a window.

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#60. Okay, yes, I bought the damn flowers myself on the way over to Jasmine's. Every time we hung out, she was always going on and on about Kendrick this and Kendrick that. I wanted her to see that I had a nigga sweating me too.

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#61. We had experienced the best and the worst of love, sex, and lies. Every heartbreak, every lie, every cheat, every test,

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#62. Bed biting my nails and damn near in tears. Part of me wanted to just tell him what was about to happen so that he could prepare himself. Yet, I couldn't figure out who I owed my loyalty to. Benz,

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#63. Fyte gloated on the phone with me last week about arresting Lucky. I knew his punk had snatched Lucky up, instead of Blood since Blood was basically untouchable to the police for some reason.

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#64. Because of escorting, I often had sex twice in one day; with a client and with the man that I was seeing intimately. It

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#65. I know women who are not in the lifestyle wouldn't understand this, but watching Melanie arouse my man made my pussy wet.

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#66. The only way that I can survive such a fucked up reality is to act like everything on the outside no longer exists; and that includes feelings, especially feelings for a man." I

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