J.M. Northup Quotes

#1. What did that say about me? Had I become one of the monsters I thought I was fighting?
"Things didn't have to be like this," I commented. "He could've made different choices.

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#2. Why did I even try then? Of course, in asking the question, I'd already known the answer; faith. I hoped; I couldn't help it.

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#3. As I lay in the late hours of night or perhaps the wee hours of morning, I felt content. I'd been right to keep faith and trust when I had no reason to. I didn't expect any grand gestures or magical solutions to things, but my hope was fueled.

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#4. There was that part of me that thought if I was already been accused of it and punished for it, then I should just do it. Of course, I didn't want to be that person. Did I?

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#5. Just because we live in a world of chaos and madness doesn't mean we have to subscribe to that sort of behavior.

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#6. She's erasing me bit by bit and it's painfully obvious that no one can stop her.

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#7. I was surprised hearing my own ragged voice. I sounded so hateful and angry. My voice didn't resemble any part of what I knew of myself.

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#8. The old fire pit was ancient. I couldn't say how many of my ancestors warmed themselves at this outdoor hearth. Sitting around it was rather affecting, especially when you thought about the countless people who had occupied your very spot in some distant past. It was kind of surreal.

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#9. Although some part of me knew that it was an impossible future, I allowed myself to be immersed fully in my dream. If I couldn't have this future, I would at least have this moment.

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#10. Even in darkness, there's light. You just need to look for it.

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#11. Sometimes I really hated people in general. I wanted to believe in the good that I knew existed in all of us, but it was so disheartening to see what happened when we let our bad over-rule that good.

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#12. Grace allows forgiveness and faith allows hope.

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#13. I didn't really comprehend what was happening or how tonight had changed us and the course of our future, but I instinctively knew that things would never be the same again. Something had ended and something was definitely beginning, I just didn't have the knowledge base to know what.

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#14. I felt ancient and exhausted. I felt like a prisoner within myself and as if I was just watching a movie that was playing before my eyes. I just wanted all of it to end and disappear; I wanted to disappear.

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#15. My step-dad's rendition of events was uncontested even by me and therefore, it became our truth. Truth I'd never be able to prove or change; truth that protected him from suspicion and penalty. Truth that I now knew was a lie.

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#16. I wouldn't let the old voices dictate me; I wouldn't let anyone dictate who I was anymore. I was strong enough to know who I was and I wasn't going to be beaten down again.

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#17. I fell silent after that. I didn't want to talk about such things anymore, at least today. My chest already hurt and I was trying to keep my mind calm. I didn't want to think of a future so bleak and dark. I had plans for my future and they didn't involve the world ending or society collapsing.

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#18. Regardless of the outcome, I needed to know that I lived my life the way I felt was right and just. I needed to let the past be the past and take people as they were in this moment; the only moment to exist.

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#19. I wanted more than anything to connect to someone. I wanted to feel alive again. I just felt dead inside. I could understand how some people just gave up. This darkness was overwhelming.

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#20. People who felt scared or desperate enough could do almost anything, even things that are extremely out of their character to do; things that are not natural to them. When it came to the human condition, it only took one small spark to light an inferno.

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#21. Again, fear makes people do stupid things," I reminded her. "It can even make you do things you never thought you were capable of. If you're desperate enough you'll even believe things you know aren't true.

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#22. Well, I'm not only a direct descendent of the Anunnaki, but I'm one of the original hybrids. My royal blood is almost pure as I was begotten from the strongest and most ancient of our kind.

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#23. I believe that all things are connected; that we're interdependent on one another. I just like feeling the wind in my hair, the sun on my face, and the earth under my feet. It all nourishes me; my soul anyway.

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