Darshana Suresh Quotes

#1. Distance: the space between my
heart & my body.

The night called and said, 'find
your way out now', and I'm trying.

I'm still trying.

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#2. I've only ever leapt away
when happiness approached -
a deer caught in headlights,
or maybe a dog with its
leg bleeding in a trap.

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#3. in my dreams i know what
to do with my hands.

i do not lock them up in a
cardboard box. i do not lock
myself up
in a paper house too ready to catch on fire.

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#4. And the stretch-across-your-entire-face smile?

From the people around me. Despite the
lonely, despite the sadness, despite the anger
their smiles make the hearts Aphrodite left
behind beat faster / louder.
They make my heart beat in my chest again.

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#5. SO HERE'S THE TRUTH:
I DON'T KNOW
I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE

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#6. Your name
fit into my mouth
better than my own ever has.

Like I was
born to speak it.

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#7. i'm sorry that
'okay'
has become
such a
foreign
concept.

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#8. You know, I can't leave when I'm
not
actually here in the first place.

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#9. as though talking
should be something
that comes to me
as easily as breathing
i went home that day
and cried for hours,
beat my fist against
the mirror until
the glass
ran together
with my tears.

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#10. When someone shows me even the tiniest bit of kindness my entire soul still twists towards them. A sunflower searching for the sun. A hatchling keening for its mother. I

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#11. She asks me how my heart is,
and I say, 'beating.'
That's never the answer you want, and I am sorry about that.

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#12. Tell me about how no one looks at you like art so you have learnt to treat yourself like a masterpiece.

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#13. I'm sorry I flinch when you say
you care.
Sorry I turn myself bullet
when you try to touch my hand,
sorry I go wolf when
you give me broken teeth.

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#14. Every autumn I
take myself into my arms
and kiss my palms
for making it through another
year.

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#15. don't you see how
hard speaking is for me?
how hard
breathing is?

don't you see that
I'm a negative space
cut from the
universe and
when you ask
me to breathe
i am trying to
will myself
into
being?

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#16. I'm writing the chapter where
you're still in love with me,
but then the chapter ends &
I turn the page.

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#17. I want you to see me
and I know that I've never known
how to make myself visible before.

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#18. Where did you get your sadness from?

I picked it up on the side of the road. It
was bleeding and scratched and keening
like a mangled thing, but it looked too
beautiful for me to just walk away.

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#19. Tell me about the Love. Like stepping into sunlight. Like catching moonbeams in your hands. Like

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#20. My body has always been
a question mark,

never quite knowing what it
means

to be alive.

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#21. There are so many good things
in this world,
and every one starts and
ends in your eyes.

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#22. Her staring at you like you hung the stars in the sky when she thinks you're not looking. Like the moon is made up of every breath that leaves your chest. This

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#23. i am too small
for this love,

i am too small
for my
own skin.

somedays i wake
and cannot
find myself
in my
body anymore.

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#24. For every second you thought you wouldn't make it.
For every second you didn't want to make it.
You made it.
Thank you for existing (so beautifully).

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#25. The lonely? Where's that from?

Sadness' best friend. Sadness brought
it along and I couldn't turn it away, so
I let it multiply in my pulse instead.

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#26. I understand the need to convince others you're okay before you can
believe
it yourself. I understand you can never really believe it
yourself,
but everything in your body relies on you trying anyway.

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#27. I just don't feel like me anymore,
&
it's not fair to answer the phone
when
the person they're looking for is
no longer
in this body, when the girl they
all used
to love looks more wolf than girl
now.

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#28. Two oceans away, a boy is falling in love.
Next door, another boy i just falling.
One is laughing, one is crying -
both are screaming.

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#29. Love is the way your body fights to keep you alive. Day

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#30. The messages pile up,
The worry knocks at
my door, louder & louder.
More calls from the therapist.
Pills that should have been
taken lie scattered across the floor.
The moon taps at my window.
Stars spell out their concern.

I pretend I do not see.

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