Alison Espach Quotes

#1. There is nothing better than this, he said, and I worried he was right. I worried that once something had entered you, it would never leave - he would plant himself inside me and grow and grow until I was nothing but him.

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#2. All fathers are liars ... If you want to be a father, you have to be prepared to become a liar.

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#3. Being an adult, it seemed, was horrible. But being a child was awful too, and moving from one state to the other only meant you were moving closer to death, with so much and so little to talk about all at the same time, and how was that even possible?

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#4. You Americans so quiet because you Americans don't know anything for real. You know your gas prices, you know your baseball numbers but do you know that no piece of paper can be folded more than seven times?

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#5. I rolled the ball of muffin and I waited and after my mother said, "That you should really take a multivitamin," my father threw up his hands in disgust, and I was positive I had no family at all, certain it was not my mother but the solar wind that carried me into the universe.

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#6. Death was just an image, I told myself, a coming together of events in a single frame, and pain was just a part of the painting and haven't we learned our lesson? Meaning is most poignant when never fully accessed.

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#7. Cry your guts out because nothing is sadder than an adult who forgets how to be a child.

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#8. And yet, every day, it seemed, I was discovering new ways to feel fourteen again. Everyday, there were new ways to be disappointed by the conversation, by the weather.

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#9. Janice was intrigued. "Wouldn't you die from that?" she asked, determined to love him forever.

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#10. Adults were constantly auditioning, but for what?

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#11. My father moved out a week later. I hugged him at our front door and couldn't bear to watch him leave with so much luggage.

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#12. Children's lives are always beginning and adults' lives are always ending. Or is it the opposite? Your childhood is always ending and your adult self is always beginning. You are always learning how to say good-bye to whoever you were at the dinner table the night before.

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#13. Inside my house, nobody was home, except everybody, but it was easy to feel like those were one and the same.

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