Alaya Dawn Johnson Quotes

#1. Ieyascu looks bright and flat, heavy strokes on an invisible canvas.

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#2. The kings die so that their choice of the next Queen can be irrevocable, unassailable, and unprejudiced.

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#3. I've loved you for so long and You're beautiful, won't you dance?

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#4. I can always tell when Gil's been with Enki, because he moves like he might start dancing at any moment and he hardly hears a word I say to him.

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#5. What if we're going too far?" "Where else would we be going?

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#6. Gods are what people worship. Men are what die.

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#7. You can't samba in a data stream,

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#8. His eyes widen. I have bound us, and he knows it. He is so beautiful, so warm and cruel and distant that I think, without the connection, I might just run away.

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#9. He turns away and I'm overwhelmed with an echo, with the sense that the words in my mouth aren't my own. But of course they are.

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#10. shoulders touching in a way that's only mostly platonic. It's inevitable, she supposes, that God would call her bluff.

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#11. I burn where he last touched me. I stare at the space where he has been until everything fades.

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#12. The kingdom of sleep demands its forfeits, and the world looks very different through eyes cracked and yellow with its denial.

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#13. There's a song", I say.
"There's always a song", he says.

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#14. Answering the questions feels like beating my skull against the wall of my carrel,

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#15. They think they've gone to heaven," he says. "They don't realize that means they're dead.

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#16. The summer kings are gods, and we are finally, in the end, just men.

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#17. The past stands in the path of the future, knowing it will be crushed.

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#18. Ignoring your subconscious is like neglecting the termite infestation in your basement. Sooner or later, the consequences of neglect will far outweigh the momentary unpleasantness of clearing the nests.

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#19. Some mornings I thought I saw your worry frost our blankets, hang in the air with your cloudy breath.

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#20. a smile that always makes you feel like you're in on a joke.

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#21. In the dark, I seem to stretch. Without a body to witness, I grow and grow with my pleasure. I feel like a constellation, a concept hung on a scattering of stars.

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#22. Something scrapes the concrete at the far end of the tunnel. I turn to Enki, hoping it's just another cleaning bot, but his eyebrows have come together in that particular way I know means trouble. He doesn't bother to speak, just looks at me, and I hear him perfectly: Move your ass.

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#23. Gil's hands imprison my own.

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#24. Enki kisses my ear. He turns my head until I taste just the corner of his mouth. I am crystal clear, I am a pond, I am a light. I am nothing at all.

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#25. I could watch him forever, and he vanishes before I can blink.

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#26. Amid all that blood of the dying sun, the verde was still alive.

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#27. Instead, there's ice in my ears and earth in my nose and stars in my eyes.

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#28. Our sex is a little death each time he touches me, much longed-for.

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#29. A good rival is almost like a friend, isn't she? You make me try harder.

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#30. I open my mouth - to scream, I think, or maybe just to cry - but he puts a careful finger on my lips. I breathe a little of his steam, and it warms me all the way through.

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#31. But I know better than anyone how dangerous trying can be, and how destructive. Maybe it's better to let bad things happen than tear yourself apart trying to stop the inevitable.

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#32. So I take my lover, my king, and I put him in a pedestal and I cut him down. A man, like the ones who ruined the world.

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#33. Hands and lips and teeth, and you'd forgotten-no, you'd never known-this way of knowing someone, this dissolution of self, this autophagy.

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#34. To love light, you have to love dark. I'm not trying to be profound, I know you'll understand. I don't mean that you have to hate to love, or that you have to die to live.
I mean that sometimes, you turn out the lights just to turn them back on.

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#35. I'm nothing but forward momentum and a curse.

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#36. How much of yourself will you give them in exchange?

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#37. I watch, nearly shaking with the need to say something and having nothing to say, as she lets a flame incinerate the precious paper to a dusting of ash on the floor.

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#38. morality is the change that falls from your pockets when you climb up the ladder.

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#39. Then you remember that Jack
that's his name, the mac & cheese
plays lacrosse. That's probably where he got all those yummy muscles. You need two hands for lacrosse.
A pinky? Damn, you might as well starve yourself.

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