Merri Lisa Johnson Quotes

#1. Our bodies made us shiver in fear and disgust. We looked in the mirror and prepared ourselves to be horrified.

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#2. My life story is structured by reckless reenactments of panic and flight.

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#3. I worked through memories like weeping wounds. I wrote tedious accounts of petty conflicts and read them aloud to people. I removed layer after layer of rot.

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#4. Affairs with unavailable people are a heroin high before nausea hits. Like smack they are destined to disappoint.
They begin with magic. Then the chasing after magic.
And finally the MOURNING FOR MAGIC.

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#5. Sweet like syrup of ipecac, she leaves my system with my guts in her hands.

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#6. I can feel the sensation (it burns) of being called crazy when you feel wounded and desperate.

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#7. I thieve love. I beg for it. People want what they cannot have.

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#8. I wade through the rush of neglect and loss and sadness pouring through a hole in my hull.

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#9. I bored myself to tears with the daytime television drama of confrontation (I've been wronged!). I winced at sluggish morning half-memories of wearing wrongness like a lampshade on my head (I'm mentally ill!).

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#10. Her life is a wrecked boat torn apart for kindling and set ablaze to send a message to the sky from a deserted beach. From a distance the words spell SAVE ME. The closer the sign the clearer the statement. Turns out it says FUCK YOU.

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#11. I longed to stabilize my core identity and to withstand the pressure of other people's words, behaviors, moods, and perceptions. I wanted to be less easily thrown.

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