Amber Dermont Quotes

#1. I slept well that night because someone had been kind to me.

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#2. Even in all that darkness I could see her beauty. Still, I couldn't claim it for myself. Instead, I decided to hurt her.
"You loved someone," I said, "who was completely inappropriate.

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#3. It's how we know we're alive," ginger said. "We grieve the dead.

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#4. That's what Cal would tell you about me. "Jason's the nice one," he'd say. "He'd give you all his stars.

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#5. I don't know why I said what I did. Maybe I wanted Hannah to remember something, or maybe I wanted to test her, but when she asked me my name I didn't even pause. "My name is Aidan," I said. "It means fire.

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#6. It's a silly thing, but I like to understand people through their obsessions.

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#7. My scalp tingled like Christmas candy on a cold tongue.

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#8. Boredom is actually the most plentiful substance in the universe.

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#9. Aidan had compared Bellingham to the Island of Misfit Toys, a sanctuary for the unwanted. But the problem, as I saw it, was that putting this many defective kids together only created more trouble.

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#10. Jason, as much as I'd like to believe that we're friends, I know I can't count on you.

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#11. For some parents, having children meant full absolution from any future mistakes. My father wouldn't permit himself to be wrong. He shifted the blame of misplaced scissors, rising interest rates, and iceless ice cube trays all unto Riegel and me.

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#12. I was surprised," I said, "to find someone here with you. I'd rather you existed only when I was around.

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#13. When you've done something terrible, something you regret, it gives you this special insight, like you can detect other people's bad behavior.

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#14. Everyone at Bellingham would know me, know who I was, by dinner. Would they consider me the hero or the fuckup? All I had wanted was to be anonymous.

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#15. To be with someone who is stronger than you. To have him relinquish his strength.

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#16. Of course I loved him.' I walked toward the window. 'We were best friends.'
'You know that's not what I meant.'
'You don't know what you mean,' I said. 'Because you know nothing about love.

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#17. Don't you miss it?" I'd ask Aidan. "All that Hollywood sunshine?"
"It's like hating the color yellow," she'd say, "and living in a golden age.

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#18. I used to believe having a good memory meant being able to remember everything in perfect detail. Now I believe having a good memory means being able to selectively forget. It's not what I'll remember, Jason," he said. "It's what I'll forget that matters.

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#19. It was scary having that sort of power over a girl. You could hurt her in ways you might never understand.

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#20. Up until that point, I'd thought that whatever existed between Cal and me was separate and distinct from the rest of the world. It hadn't occurred to me that a stranger could sense and recognize something so private.

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#21. I'd thought of her with unblinking eyes, moving always, across the pages of opened books with rapid precision, but as she stood in front of me, her eyes looked slow and watery. I capsized into them.

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#22. In a moment like this, there were so many beautiful and uncommon things worth saying. Aidan would have said them all, stealing this spectacle from the men who'd paid for it, making it her own.

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#23. Bellingham Academy: everything you always wanted in a prep school and less.

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#24. I'd used the word "beautiful" to describe another boy. I knew how it must have sounded to her. I also knew that it was exactly what I'd meant, exactly what I did not want to mean.

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#25. How strange and rare it was to see the top of a girl's ear. I reached out to touch her, but my hand flew back from a spark of static electricity.

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#26. You know, I'm going to make it a point whenever I see you to be like the ocean. You can look to me for relief.

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